I feel like the last two years have been really rough for me. I’m lucky enough that I still have a roof over my head, but just barely. I am also lucky that I have food to eat, but I can say that I just barely have that, too. So, to try to calm myself and help myself stay in a more calm headspace, I liked to go to Tubidy MP3 for music. Music is a mainstay in my life, and I really need it at all times to help keep my mind at ease and my thoughts better sorted.
Both of my siblings died in the past two years. One had cancer and the other one had a freak accident at home when he was working on his favorite woodworking hobby. I won’t go into details, but let’s just say that it was a shock to me to find that I no longer have a brother and sister. I always imagined the three of us taking care of one another in our old age when we all need it because we are so close to age. I really feel alone now, and I never felt that way before.
On top of this, my dog of 10 years had cancer. I tried to get it treated, but the treatments did not work. The look he gave me on the day that I put him to sleep broke my heart. Later, that same night, my mom sat me down and told me that she had cancer and it may be terminal. I broke down for the first time in mmy life. Mom is still fighting her battle, though. It seems to be going pretty good, and I think she will luck out. So, I am grateful for some of the good things still.